Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <3
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Creativity, Art, Music, and Photography makes the years into beautiful memories, gives healing to the traumas, heart breaks, and growing pains, and provide outlets for people who can't express in words or other ways how they feel.
Stories (6/0)
What Should Have Been...
For a moment in time I freeze my reality and I can see a world where both of you live and grow every day. A dream so bittersweet my heart breaks in two. A part of me is always divided between my time and place in a world that holds you and the rest of me resides in a time where you little ones couldn't stay and live to be with me.
By Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <34 years ago in Poets
A Life Divided by a Yearning Soul
For a moment in time I freeze my reality and I can see a world where both of you live and grow every day. A dream so bittersweet my heart breaks in two. A part of me is always divided between my time and place in a world that holds you and the rest of me resides in a time where you little ones couldn't stay and live to be with me
By Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <35 years ago in Poets
My Dream Come True and My Worst Nightmare
Sometimes in dreams your who you promised to be and the life and the plans we made became reality. The side of you that made me fall so deeply is there and the man who shattered my soul, broke my spirit, and changed the person I was inside never existed and never ruined the destiny my heart so desired. The tragedy of losing our babies never happened and our family came together and made the life we had pictured before your brokenness showed its ugly side. Opening my eyes from my slumber I am reminded of all the loss that came through you. My babies given then taken away from me and the coldness you showed when you left and turned away from me, the numbness that filled me taking me into the dark abyss where time froze and stood still. The grief and sorrow continued to build and covered me taking my breath away and the person I used to know. I despise you for so many reasons; the promises pledged, the betrayal of my trust, and the abuse of my heart. But with that said the love for the man you could never be and the love you didn't have the ability to show. Because of you parts of me are gone and I will never be who I was before we came together. When you left it tore me apart I grieved for the man you could have been but I rejoiced in my freedom. The day finally came where you reached out to me again and it took all the strength I had to left to close the door and using that power turned away from you. I released myself from you and opening my cage found my wings finally freeing me from the chains that bound my heart. I said goodbye and chose me for once. Forgiveness is something I work on to help me understand and heal the wounds that devastated me and all that I am. Hoping to find release and the happiness that I deserve that will always be tainted by the loss of my children who I carry in my heart and not in my arms.
By Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <35 years ago in Poets
Trying to Let Go!
The aching in my heart sends vibrations through my soul. Emptiness like a cloak covers me. Silence fills the house where I thought we had built a home. Questions, so many questions running a maze through my mind. Here with me one day and gone the next. I'm lost trying to find my ground.
By Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <35 years ago in Poets
His Love a Twisted Root of Deceit
You held me in limbo a prisoner in your game. Holding me in a place of dreams, illusions and fairytales. Weaving spells with your words and entrancing me with your touch. Deceiving me with your eyes baring a soul that wasn't there.
By Heidi heather Tipton Hadley 1327 <35 years ago in Poets
