~Unfaithful~

Oh she was unfaithful dressed in all black

And I was the mad hatter wearing my top hat

Said she was toxic yeah I know that

What's knew?

I'm just stuck in the blue

Who knew that I didn't really know you

Didn't know me?

As if

Surely I'm not that elusive those are just excuses

Misused words directed at me like I'm abusive

Staring at me hard like she knows what truth is

Something in the air smells putrid

Couldn't be me

I keep myself clean

Never mean

Never mean what I say?

It's a paradox it seems

Now I'm the one pulling all the strings

Projecting your insecurities at me

Like my bleeding heart wasn't enough

Didn't know you had so many rough edges

Girl, got me jumping off ledges like I'm pledging my soul

To her because

My love

Was a raven

And really she's the dove

Angels and demons in my head I must be dreaming

In all reality I'm the one screaming

Projecting my inadequacies living in a fantasy

A web I weaved all on my own then disowned

Leaving my problems to the wind just so I could win

I guess I'm the monster and I kept giving in

Oh he was unfaithful

Dressed in hazmat

Because I guess I have that

Type of personality that I play victim to myself

All pristine sitting on the shelf not looking for help

Because I'm my own way out

Repetition compulsion

Convulsing in my bed as the lights are pulsing

Too many blotters and drugs to run away from the one thing I fear the most

The darkest of hosts

Myself