Toxic

Sitting on the couch

sipping on some wine

Just got done with our round nine

His phone blowing up like if we just didn’t vibe

All these girls on his line

About to tell him to dip out, goodbye

I think your uber is here

Get out of my life

Now I’m sitting here left alone

With my thoughts and this bottle of wine

thinking of how stupid can I be.

How dumb could I be..

like why did I let my life go?

Why did I let the man who I truly love

take advantage of me.

Why did I put myself through so much pain

Why did I let these tears fall down my face?

How dumb can I be?

How could you play me?

I feel so bad for ever turning my back

to the people who truly cared for me

I didn’t listen to what they had to say

Because he was just so damn special to me.

I even tatted his initials on my back

and everything..

Yeah he was my rider, my main man..

He wasn’t just my love he also my homie

But at the end of the day He did me dirty

just like everyone would tell me

I gave you all of my trust

Did I really care about you?

Or did I care more about making this money

I don’t even care about having a honey

I mean yeah it was cool

getting a little cuddly

But I got to keep my mind on this money

So onto the next

Because my mind got to accept

the fact that you and I

will never connect

So I unplugged this love that I thought

we once was

Separating myself from this toxic love

Fixing the wounds of my soul

Will be the death of my well

You got my stomach in a swirl

And my emotions more messed up than this world

I’m sitting here reminiscing

Sipping on some wine like the old times

It’s been more than a year

That time has gone by

But I met me a new guy

And he ain’t like an ordinary vibe

I think he’s actually the one

And I know he will never make me cry

But if this vibe ain’t right

I ain’t staying

Honestly

crazy you’ve gotten me so messed up

And So damn picky now

And thats the stuff that bothers me the most

You’ve messed up my mentality

and my trust

But I hope one day I will repair

And live the best life I could

Boo’d up and everything