I’m so tired of the fake love
What are these emotions
I keep stressing out
Stressing you out
Putting in effort trying to keep us going
Do i care for us or do I care for the reputation
Want it to be known you’re mine
When you won’t even claim me
You don’t put in any effort
Don’t seek me out
I put out as much as I can
My soul not my you know what
But its all superficial
Because I don’t trust this
I don’t trust us
I don’t trust that we’ll last
And you’re not proving me wrong
You’ll never go deeper than the first layer
I’m a writer, I’m naturally deep
But every move is calculated
Every speech is manipulated
I give you a little so you feel satisfied
You think you know me
Cause you know about my family?
You don’t know what makes me, me
And that fucking irks me
I want to open up
I want to let you see me
You just don’t make me feel secure enough to do so
And I hate that I’m not secure
I’m a bad ass bitch
Why do I get stressed
about this dum ass shit
And everytime I start
I say “lets not talk about it”
And you say okay like a fucking dick
Can’t you see I want to be chased
Just chase me
Let me know you want to know why I’ll never open up
So I can tell you a speech I practiced well enough
Give you just enough but never too much
And then theres that bitch
She has your whole heart don’t she?
I know you’re fucking gay but it seems like you’re straight and you love her
Even though she’s not straight
But you see there it is
The thing you can bond on
Even though she doesn’t know you’re gay
Or maybe she does
Maybe you told her
Oh god if you told her
I wouldn’t be able to forgive you
How could you tell someone OUR secret that was Mine to keep.
But you guys bond over other things,
Like fucking Harry Potter
I’ve watched every damn Harry Potter in 5 minutes video
And I still don’t get
But I’m trying
Why is it so hard for you to just give in a little
Can’t you see I’m hurting and I need reassurance
Let me know you want to know why’ll I’ll never open up
So I can tell you a speech I practiced well enough
Give you just enough but never too much
About the Creator
Brianna C
Just a young girl in a big city, trying to find her niche. I try not took take myself to seriously.
Comments
There are no comments for this story
Be the first to respond and start the conversation.