Teacher's Pain
He can feel, he just won't share the burden
Why feel?
Why shove a burden on another's chest?
Why assign them with an obligation
To multiply emotions from you
When you know that they're not sincere?
When one friend will suffocate you
At a moment when you have to beg for solitude,
One friend will shrink your concerns to dust
And claim deafening pep talks are the ideal broom,
And one friend will switch on a heart attack
From the fear of your cloudy days darkening,
Can you really blame me
For pretending I feel less than Captain Holt
And weakening the threads between me and my family
While drowning in my tear-soaked pillow
Never feels as good as hugs they exchange?
If I ever unlock my heart,
Either pride will possess them
And stab me with "I told you so's"
Or I'm labeled as a snake in teacher's clothing
Until he spotlights himself in the background
And I sink into my paperwork-filled casket
Before they could feign guilt and apologies.
No matter what happens,
I will always come back.
Despite all who mute my contributions,
One person needs me,
But even he thinks being less me
Would bring more peace to his head.
I stare out at the sea
Like I just walked into a majestic painting.
I'll never be completely gone.
I can never truly escape.
I'll never completely exit my life
With satisfaction I possessed enough time
To spare my loved ones from my aching burden
Before the cat leaps out of the bag
And causes them more pain and burdening.
I gaze at my surroundings
And confirm I've pushed the fahm far enough
So they'd cease to see me or stop me.
I jump into the sea
Like I'm Virgil and it's a conclusion.
Low and behold,
The weight on my shoulders is enough to sink me.
I know I'll come back,
I know Thomas is our life source,
But I guess my eyes sting more than usual,
Because I wish I could see them from below
As if the feelings they'd express toward me
Were what they'd possess on their own accord
About the Creator
Monique Star
I'm not the most sophisticated adult out there. I'm also not the best at communicating all the time, but I do try my best to get my thoughts out there into the world verbally or nonverbally.
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