Poetry
Mother – An Identity Crisis by Jasper Rene
Do you know how it is to feel so alone?
So not at home in the home that you were born in and told;
‘This is who you are now,
Whether you like it or not doesn't matter now,’
And everything I say can be shot down with a quiet remark to my dad;
"She thinks she's gay."
I don't think you know the level of pain I deal with on a daily basis,
And while I walk around and do my work and go about my business
With all this on my shoulders and you still refuse to face this,
And you have the nerve to tell me
That this is just what life is?
Do you feel what I feel when I'm alone in my own household
Directly after being told that all of this is getting old
And you told me you were worried that I'd wander out into the cold
And then you leave me for five hours and expect me not to fold?
And do you know, do you even know
How it feels to be repeatedly told by your mother
To pack up who you are and just go
"Go to school."
She doesn't know.
She doesn't want to know.
Mother I wish, god I wish you knew
That whenever you sit there running through
The reasons gender identity is a myth
The voice in my head screaming
"WHO. ARE. YOU."
Gets more and more aggressive.
But I shouldn't complain, I shouldn't be sad
Because for you, it's just as bad, right?
It's terrible for you because you always have to get mad, right?
That's my fault too,
I should apologise to you
Because I'm the one who's causing all this trouble.
Isn't that right mother?
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