N&P

I want to end it.

I have no motivation.

Yet so many aspirations.

But no inspiration.

A sad boy with no intentions.

Force fed contentions with no luck.

No help, I'm stuck.

Locked in my mind with no key inside.

I wanna end it all but my family's pride.

Couldn't hurt them all, Id feel snide.

Terrible feelings in life or death, cut my tongue and take my breath I just wanna...*sigh*

Dye my hair or change my name

Relocate my place and gain some fame. Sell my soul just to not feel blame.

Give it all up cause Id feel the same

Guess I'm not sane

cut myself or take the shot

Dear god my face is hot

Tears streaming down my cheeks

Blood pooling on the floor

Man it reeks.

Couple messages a day for streaks

Isn't the same as showing love in the streets

My heart beats till it stops

Heads in pain till it pops

Man nothing can stop these thoughts.

I want to live.

I want some motivation.

I have so many aspirations

I need some inspiration

A hopeful man with good intentions

Force feed me something else, please!

I want help, I'm free

I'm not locked in, the door is open to the busy street. So many faces

A million therapists to meet, millions of dreams of traveling places walking down English streets

Terrible feelings while alive or dead is something I dearly want to change, I want to feel good, I want to feel sane, I want to look at myself and see that I've changed. Starts with me though. Change my hair, pipe dreams of being famous, simple ways to say escape. Leave the town, peace the city, see the world Ive heard is pretty. Lose myself in some fantastical way and have an adventure every other single day. Meet the love of my life and see my soul in her eyes, perfect myself and hope for this vision's fruition.

I want to live. I want to love. I have hope and nothing more. No blood will be spilled on this or any floor, stay strong myself and this will all pass.

Every single terrible emotion I've brought can rest

I can stop these thoughts.