Just Like a Period (It Wasn’t)
They told me It wasn’t my fault. I love my friends but can I believe them?
I had leaves growing inside
of me, full of blood loved insides.
Beautiful broken fruits as
sweet as the strawberry juice
that smeared my legs like raspberry
jam.
No, tree trunks to hold me,
no clocks too tell the time,
as night reached me in second
as screams were the only presence.
I look to God covered in jam,
red strawberry hands,
red lipstick on fingertips,
why won't you disappear.
All alone in my own forest,
water rushing on too red covered
skin but yet, you won't be seen
clean.
The guilt is a knife in my throat,
like paternity clothes cooked
in the grease in my meals.
A white table for the doctor
too inspect with cotton knifes
and spiked white gloved hands
that pierce the inside of
my thighs.
That was all a dream...
Inside in a bathroom with four
walls, no way out but brown door
running.
I hold myself in vines, blood
on my body, screams from my
pink covered throat...a clot
in my hand.
Pain as sweet and as simple
in my stomach, crunching the leaves
beneath my bare feet.
I could not catch you.
Just like a period; you remind me of what I've lost.
Blood stained skin, crunched up
leaves, a hole in-between the wall
and I.
A crushed heart, so who can
fill the void of where a child should
have began and a life that
should have never ended?
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