Grey December

A month, or a year, no a lifetime ago; we danced with each other in the falling rain

To the tune of a love song our feet squished down into the soft muddy terrain

You held me so close the people all smiled, they felt they were part of something so pure perhaps a little wild

We sang and hummed along to the melody, a solid man and his only lady

Everyone says we were such a sight to see, it wasn’t even our wedding and still they thought “they’re simply meant to be”

When our babies joined us out on the lawn

Dancing together I felt complete, like this is where I belong

I remember how November came and went and one day a month later you decided to quit

You shocked us all with your accusations, your anger, deceit

You made us beg and grovel, we were entertainment at your feet

You chose to throw out our unconditional love, we didn’t pass the test and you replaced us with something shallow, meaningless, dysfunctional at best

You became a stranger that I would never give a second look, now a selfish and mean spirited man, there you stood.

You’ve become someone I hate to see and you effectively erased who I really am from your memory

Grieving for the you we thought we knew was by far the hardest part, not only for me but our children as well

You still take no responsibility for the part you played in your family’s trials through such a hellish ordeal

You had a loyal woman who would have laid down her life for you, but that was before the mask came off to reveal the real truth

Each day that I’m tempted by some silly dream or thoughts of our love from the past, I just make it a point to relive the ending and remember

The man I loved, the man you were, died on a cold grey day back in December.