The world must look so different through the eyes of someone who doesn't fear the unknown
...A sight I'll never know
It must be clear, with defiant opportunity to cease the day
...One in which I choose to lay
I do so because it's comforting to not be afraid of what is coming my way
...Something you're accustomed to
But me and millions of others
Can't display
We wake up every morning that we have something sociable planned and panic without dismay
We shut out the world whenever we can, because it's the only way we feel okay
We lose out on achievements and goals because the anxiety never stays at bay
It's always a tsunami of wretched uncertainty leading us through each day
I want to do this and that but my nervous tension will always have its way
I need to make more money but behind the scenes jobs don't make as much pay
So I push myself to stop screaming inside, yet it's always so loud and never dies away
Louder and louder
I'm physically screaming now
Tears dripping down my face
One slight look of judgement
And I'm back to the replays
Over and over in my head
Little to no leeway
I just want to go a day without
Feeling like everyone looks at me as prey
But the vultures must eat to nourish
Even if their prey is already astray
This monstrosity takes the beauty out of the little things
For what does it convey?
A bloody ounce of nothingness
To that I can relate
There's no sense for any of this
But there's no expiration date
I have to spend my life like this
How does one carry this weight?
We pop pills the doctors give us
Like that's gonna cure this trait
But they make us numb and ignorant to what really is our fate
So we pretend like we don't need the drugs to sedate this beastly grey
It's so cloudy now I can't see No clarity around me Please help me I'm drowning In my tears sea No one understands me I can't think Then I can't stop
Oh my god
Please turn it off Please turn it off
TURN IT OFF!
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It's off.
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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