Put yourself in a box
You are no longer you
Listen to her commands
Don’t think you can do what you want to
Don’t piss her off
It’ll ruin more than just her mood
Keep your love, she’s your rock
That is attached to the box when she throws it in the water so blue
She loves you! She loves you!
No body can save me now
I’m drowning at the bottom
Wasn’t even searching for safety
Because she was attached to my problems
Don’t be too sad though
Then she’ll really have a problem
Suffocate in your mind but don’t voice it to her
Ponder on if this is how love is supposed to be
But never ever come clean
You can’t lose her
You can’t let your weakness be seen
Silly you
Silly you
That’s exactly what she uses to manipulate you sweetie
Mental insanity it feels like she hit me
No bruises no marks
We used to laugh and say our lives were bruised from the start
But the way you left me when I left you
I still have battle scars
That’s what happens when you open up deep down in the oceans arms
You float up from the darkness that creeped with glowing dwellers
Golden creatures torture your souls keeper as you make your way to clear waters
The life is different here but you still can’t breathe under all the pressure
Still think of her, you start to think you have an obsession
Maybe I should have kept the box closed that way I’d have her forever
Never let yourself go so she can love you so much better
Maybe I am in the wrong, maybe it has to deal with my stormy weather
How it always came in waves because I didn’t know I was bipolar
It’s my fault oh god should I dive down deep and console her
Sorry for being me is what I would have told her
No no keep swimming
Up not down, you may love her
But the toxicity was always screaming you can never control her
Her anger would always make you want to end
Your sadness would never be worthy enough to her and her friends
Swim up!
Listen!
PLEASE listen!
Don’t get caught up
In evol love’s trap just because you miss them!
I kept swimming towards the light
It took time but my lungs needed air
Pulsing hard I used all my might
My first real love wasn’t fair
Remember the dark times
The person you were with is no longer there
In fact they’re better without out you
No!no! Don’t compare
Keep swimming before your lungs give out
I know it hurts but you need you now
Big strokes large kicks
Almost to the top somehow!
One last big hope
IM BREATHING AIR IN CROWDS
HUFF AND PUFF AND SMILE AND TRUST
I MADE IT, I DID IT
I NO LONGER FEEL GUILTY WHEN I THINK OF US
THERE IS NO HOPE LEFT AND IM SETTLED WITH SUCH
I AM MY OWN MESS AND THAT IS ENOUGH
I look up at the sun
Sunshine is what I called you once
I feel nothing at the remembrance of our love
It seems insane that it ever was
You were not the sun I want
You were the one that sunk my thoughts
You were just a lesson I needed taught
The real sun has always shined
Never has it thrown me in the darkness and left me blind
It always rises
And it always will
I am the sun
Until my heart beats still
I will rise
I will fall
I will create beautiful sunsets for you all
You never deserved this me
Now I know why we are history
Thank you for teaching me
I’ll stop reaching for you now
I now shine so easily
All without you,
Wow.
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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