Against Me

And I'd always have to drag her back

Nails against chalkboard,

Hair pulled against will

Even though she wanted to stay

Skin raging against skin

Words thrown against my feelings

Hatred of kindness and love

Even though that's what she craved

By no means am I innocent

My skin ripples with the after math

Going against all words she says

Not listening

Cover my ears to see the light of day

And open my eyes to nothingness

To darkness

Open them against my will

Open my being, my entire life

My heart

My mind

Against everything I believe in

Against my own judgement

And she crowds it like a fish bowl

A fish bowl full of sharks

Large, humongous, demanding

And so he says I'm against him

I push and pull

I peel my skin back against itself

To open myself as much as possible

And yet we're still closed off

Against each other

Against me

Against him

Against me

Against her