Abandonment
Sometimes it doesn't make sense.
Abandonment
We used to be the best of friends
The apple of your eye.
The reason why
You loved and laughed,
The why you didn’t die.
That was so long ago...
Left to rot.
Broken bag of bones
Crushing weeping sores
Nail marks in the floor
Scratching for the door.
Get me out!
A place where I’m unwanted.
A phantom of a girl that died some years ago.
Energetic little star
Metamorphosed a frenzied hungry ghost.
Mutated genes in every pore.
The trophy you owned,
Permanently altered.
Possessed by an Other.
Taken and shattered,
Emblem of a scar;
The fissure of our bond
That shook the walls with silent screams.
Littered scabs and broken glass
Fashioned with a secrecy
Hidden almost in the skin.
A dependency
An addiction to self-mutilation
Then…
Inhibition starts to reason
That…
This is the better way.
Somehow led astray.
Where did you go?
Who with?
Nuzzled in your side,
Safety in your arms,
Beaten by another one
That stood higher on the podium.
Advisor – with
Qualifications I did not have.
That stood between your legs
Money in your pocket
That I could not bring home.
Company you yearned for
That was better, than I.
Lies,
Yours had fault lines,
So many broken parts,
I constructed my Enigma.
Carefully conducted,
You’ll never break through mine.
Repulsive to watch
The grotesque foundations build
Between us.
Left alone,
Hearing noises
Hands too small to cover ears.
Suffocating satisfaction
Heart rate bleeding through for you.
I might have well have died.
The eye roll on my death bed
An imitation of your revulsion
Not again!
Not again! No more.
Little bird just fly already!
But my wing is still too broken.
Feed with your empathy
Sing songs to help me sleep.
Just be there when I need you
When I need to weep.
Wrap me in the clouds
You looted from Zeus.
To protect me from the war inside
My demons are on the front line.
Warrior, saviour?
Always my guardian
Sealed with wax.
An oath you had taken?
A promise to protect me!
Even the blackest of smoke disappears
Into the vast nothingness
Of broken dreams.
Even the loudest of screams are silent –
If you go that far.
Maybe I can vanish
Into the ether of your memory.
Perhaps you will want to forget...
Have a funeral nearly four years overdue.
I want you back more than anything,
But first...
Please recognise that I’m alive.
Unity Addison © 2018
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Unity Addison
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