Your Reaction

Hey, what’s been going on?

I was just thinking about you

It’s been some time since we last

caught up, enjoying life?

I’m glad you enjoyed the book I wrote you…

It took a lot for me to do that for you…

I never swallowed my pride so hard,

but I’m glad that I did…

What got me the most wasn’t the book

But your reaction to the book.

That reaction of yours is constant reminder

of why I do what I do…

Nobody ever cried over the words

that I put on paper…

I wish I was there to share that feeling with you.

I could’ve explained myself better

Maybe could’ve made you cry even

harder if I read it to you.

You told me it was the nicest thing ever…

I’m glad it was the nicest thing ever…

Three years of holding strong

emotions back can kill any man,

it would make anybody crack under pressure.

Three years of hiding, it would make

any man look like a coward.

I knew back then that one day I

would be able to tell you how I felt.

I just didn’t know when the time would be.

I didn’t know when nature would call.

Who’s to say how I would pull it off?

It changed in October of 2016.

I had to do something to let you know how I felt.

I was too much of a coward to tell you to your face…

So, I figured that I would do it the best way I knew how

That was to write it out to you.

Writing how I felt was the easiest part.

The hardest part was getting it to you.

With all my success and fame skyrocketing around

this time, I had the perfect window to climb through.

I didn’t know if you would love me or hate me

for what I was going to do…

I didn’t care about looking like a fool,

I had to get everything off my chest.

Either that or I would’ve spent

the rest of my life wondering “what if.”

I would’ve had this book out about some girl I liked

And she would’ve never knew because I was

too afraid to put my foot forward and grow a pair to

tell her I wrote this to her.

But, I’m glad I overcame my fear.

I had no choice.

I remember the day I first messaged you.

The day was alright.

It was rainy, but eh.

I had some McDonalds when I texted you,

I had to eat some fries to keep me comfort.

I was listening to Eminem’s “8 Mile”

to give me the courage to send the message.

I was sitting down.

When you hit me with that “Hiii” text,

I was like “Yeah. I got this!”

Everything started flowing after that.

That Halloween morning I got your reaction

after sending you the book…

my heart became warm.

I’m glad I did that for you…

Thanks for supporting me!