Self-harm is when you believe that someone else could ever love you without motive, without something to gain.
Self-mutilation is when you put the scalpel in his hands so that he transforms into a surgeon and cuts you open for exploratory surgery only to find what he wants and needs to remove from you to benefit him.
Suicide is when you consent to giving yourself away, letting him take vital bits and pieces out of you, and never getting anything in return for your sacrifices.
Living is when you choose to love yourself first. Love your whole self without judgement and without motive, and no one else can give or take your worth away.
My name, Amanda, means worthy to be loved, and today I am going to believe that. Today, I am going to put that into action. Today, I am going to take my life back from anyone that I gave it to and anyone that tried to make me feel like I wasn’t good enough.
Today, I choose me!
About the Creator
Amanda Coker
Amanda is a mom to two daughters, and has returned to college to complete her Bachelors Degree in Special Education. Passionate about mental health advocacy, she is an active member of NAMI and is on the advisory council for PAIMI.
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