Worthy

Tell me something is there a way to make you remember what happened.

I see it everyday in my actions, my emotions, my words.

You left me messed up inside when you disregarded everything.

I am not here to make you the bad guy, I never wanted to hurt you.

But you caused so much damage to my subconscious I do it unintentionally.

I feel as though I will never be who I truly am again.

Not until I get this out of my head.

It happened in a way I thought was okay, I didn’t think it was a problem.

Now I look into the past knowing what I do and it's true.

In a way you took advantage of who I was.

You molded me into a different person.

Someone I never thought I could become, not to say I'm not in love.

There are parts I would never change and some I wish never were affected.

But the truth is I am not that little girl anymore, I have to let go.

My mind is jumbled with no motive

And yet I feel like I miss you, or at least the memories I want to savour

Someone I thought loved me turned to be abusive

Never in my life had I felt livelier.

Nothing can change the past it is already written

But we need to stop letting it control our future.

Stop the thoughts from being on the run

Now that I see past the blur.

I’m sorry to say you manipulated me, made me think I was not worthy of your love.

Am I crazy, is this an obsession?

I never wanted you to hear it from me

I’ve been playing the part that you gave me, the bitch.

When in reality you were that hun

Always played the innocent act so well, you even fucked me up to make it believable.

Why did you do it, still to this day six years after it started that still seems to be the way.

Well I’m done playing your part, find a new yourself another person to abuse

Maybe that’s the real reason it seems no one loves you.

I don’t mean that really, I love you and I want the best for you.

There is no blame to give, responsibility needs to be taken

By both parties who played the part

But to give you the satisfaction of making me feel unworthy is not going to happen.

I will become someone you could never achieve because deep down we are complete opposites, the roles we play.

The way to do that is to cut you short there has been a tightrope between us keeping each of us miserable, I know you won’t do it so I’ll pull the scissors.

Someone once told me, “Once toxic people learn that they cannot control who you are anymore, they try to control what the people around you think of you.”

Now looking at everything you were the toxic person that kept me from growing.

So to be true to my nature, I will do as I said to you, I will help you but after that I’m done.

Goodbye to you and I wish you well as our futures are bound to drift apart.

I don’t mean to be so harsh it hurts me to write you this but honey I can’t play your game.

Now when I think of you there won’t be any anger, just relief because I know what you are.

Cristina this is farewell.

Goodbye to everything that has to do with you

It hurts me too much to keep pretending that there was nothing

So you can keep your games, and manipulation to yourself because there is no way in hell I will let it control my life anymore. Tell me something is there a way to make you remember what happened.

I see it everyday in my actions, my emotions, my words.

You left me messed up inside when you disregarded everything.

I am not here to make you the bad guy, I never wanted to hurt you.

But you caused so much damage to my subconscious I do it unintentionally.

I feel as though I will never be who I truly am again.

Not until I get this out of my head.

It happened in a way I thought was okay, I didn’t think it was a problem.

Now I look into the past knowing what I do and it's true.

In a way you took advantage of who I was.

You molded me into a different person.

Someone I never thought I could become, not to say I'm not in love.

There are parts I would never change and some I wish never were affected.

But the truth is I am not that little girl anymore, I have to let go.

My mind is jumbled with no motive

And yet I feel like I miss you, or at least the memories I want to savour

Someone I thought loved me turned to be abusive

Never in my life had I felt livelier.

Nothing can change the past it is already written

But we need to stop letting it control our future.

Stop the thoughts from being on the run

Now that I see past the blur.

I’m sorry to say you manipulated me, made me think I was not worthy of your love.

Am I crazy, is this an obsession.

I never wanted you to hear it from me

I’ve been playing the part that you gave me, the bitch.

When in reality you were that hun

Always played the innocent act so well, you even fucked me up to make it believable.

Why did you do it, still to this day 6 years after it started that still seems to be the way.

Well I’m done playing your part, find a new yourself another person to abuse

Maybe that’s the real reason it seems no one loves you.

I don’t mean that really, I love you and I want the best for you.

There is no blame to give, responsibility needs to be taken

By both parties who played the part

But to give you the satisfaction of making me feel unworthy is not going to happen.

I will become someone you could never achieve because deep down we are complete opposite the role we play.

The way to do that is to cut you short there has been a tightrope between us keeping each of us miserable, I know you won’t do it so I’ll pull the scissors.

Someone once told me “Once toxic people learn that they cannot control who you are anymore they try to control what the people around you think of you”

Now looking at everything you were the toxic person that kept me from growing.

So to be true to my nature I will do as I said to you, I will help you but after that I’m done.

Goodbye to you and I wish you well as our futures are bound to drift apart.

I don’t mean to be so harsh it hurts me to write you this but honey I can’t play your game.

Now when I think of you there won’t be any anger, just relief because I know what you are.

Cristina this is farewell.

Goodbye to everything that has to do with you

It hurts me too much to keep pretending that there was nothing

So you can keep your games, and manipulation to yourself because there is no way in hell I will let it control my life anymore.Tell me something is there a way to make you remember what happened.

I see it everyday in my actions, my emotions, my words.

You left me messed up inside when you disregarded everything.

I am not here to make you the bad guy, I never wanted to hurt you.

But you caused so much damage to my subconscious I do it unintentionally.

I feel as though I will never be who I truly am again.

Not until I get this out of my head.

It happened in a way I thought was okay, I didn’t think it was a problem.

Now I look into the past knowing what I do and it's true.

In a way you took advantage of who I was.

You molded me into a different person.

Someone I never thought I could become, not to say I'm not in love.

There are parts I would never change and some I wish never were affected.

But the truth is I am not that little girl anymore, I have to let go.

My mind is jumbled with no motive

And yet I feel like I miss you, or at least the memories I want to savour

Someone I thought loved me turned to be abusive

Never in my life had I felt livelier.

Nothing can change the past it is already written

But we need to stop letting it control our future.

Stop the thoughts from being on the run

Now that I see past the blur.

I’m sorry to say you manipulated me, made me think I was not worthy of your love.

Am I crazy, is this an obsession.

I never wanted you to hear it from me

I’ve been playing the part that you gave me, the bitch.

When in reality you were that hun

Always played the innocent act so well, you even fucked me up to make it believable.

Why did you do it, still to this day 6 years after it started that still seems to be the way.

Well I’m done playing your part, find a new yourself another person to abuse

Maybe that’s the real reason it seems no one loves you.

I don’t mean that really, I love you and I want the best for you.

There is no blame to give, responsibility needs to be taken

By both parties who played the part

But to give you the satisfaction of making me feel unworthy is not going to happen.

I will become someone you could never achieve because deep down we are complete opposite the role we play.

The way to do that is to cut you short there has been a tightrope between us keeping each of us miserable, I know you won’t do it so I’ll pull the scissors.

Someone once told me “Once toxic people learn that they cannot control who you are anymore they try to control what the people around you think of you”

Now looking at everything you were the toxic person that kept me from growing.

So to be true to my nature I will do as I said to you, I will help you but after that I’m done.

Goodbye to you and I wish you well as our futures are bound to drift apart.

I don’t mean to be so harsh it hurts me to write you this but honey I can’t play your game.

Now when I think of you there won’t be any anger, just relief because I know what you are.

Cristina this is farewell.

Goodbye to everything that has to do with you

It hurts me too much to keep pretending that there was nothing

So you can keep your games, and manipulation to yourself because there is no way in hell I will let it control my life anymore.Tell me something is there a way to make you remember what happened.

I see it everyday in my actions, my emotions, my words.

You left me messed up inside when you disregarded everything.

I am not here to make you the bad guy, I never wanted to hurt you.

But you caused so much damage to my subconscious I do it unintentionally.

I feel as though I will never be who I truly am again.

Not until I get this out of my head.

It happened in a way I thought was okay, I didn’t think it was a problem.

Now I look into the past knowing what I do and it's true.

In a way you took advantage of who I was.

You molded me into a different person.

Someone I never thought I could become, not to say I'm not in love.

There are parts I would never change and some I wish never were affected.

But the truth is I am not that little girl anymore, I have to let go.

My mind is jumbled with no motive

And yet I feel like I miss you, or at least the memories I want to savour

Someone I thought loved me turned to be abusive

Never in my life had I felt livelier.

Nothing can change the past it is already written

But we need to stop letting it control our future.

Stop the thoughts from being on the run

Now that I see past the blur.

I’m sorry to say you manipulated me, made me think I was not worthy of your love.

Am I crazy, is this an obsession.

I never wanted you to hear it from me

I’ve been playing the part that you gave me, the bitch.

When in reality you were that hun

Always played the innocent act so well, you even fucked me up to make it believable.

Why did you do it, still to this day 6 years after it started that still seems to be the way.

Well I’m done playing your part, find a new yourself another person to abuse

Maybe that’s the real reason it seems no one loves you.

I don’t mean that really, I love you and I want the best for you.

There is no blame to give, responsibility needs to be taken

By both parties who played the part

But to give you the satisfaction of making me feel unworthy is not going to happen.

I will become someone you could never achieve because deep down we are complete opposite the role we play.

The way to do that is to cut you short there has been a tightrope between us keeping each of us miserable, I know you won’t do it so I’ll pull the scissors.

Someone once told me “Once toxic people learn that they cannot control who you are anymore they try to control what the people around you think of you”

Now looking at everything you were the toxic person that kept me from growing.

So to be true to my nature I will do as I said to you, I will help you but after that I’m done.

Goodbye to you and I wish you well as our futures are bound to drift apart.

I don’t mean to be so harsh it hurts me to write you this but honey I can’t play your game.

Now when I think of you there won’t be any anger, just relief because I know what you are.

Cristina this is farewell.

Goodbye to everything that has to do with you

It hurts me too much to keep pretending that there was nothing

So you can keep your games, and manipulation to yourself because there is no way in hell I will let it control my life anymore.Tell me something is there a way to make you remember what happened.

I see it everyday in my actions, my emotions, my words.

You left me messed up inside when you disregarded everything.

I am not here to make you the bad guy, I never wanted to hurt you.

But you caused so much damage to my subconscious I do it unintentionally.

I feel as though I will never be who I truly am again.

Not until I get this out of my head.

It happened in a way I thought was okay, I didn’t think it was a problem.

Now I look into the past knowing what I do and it's true.

In a way you took advantage of who I was.

You molded me into a different person.

Someone I never thought I could become, not to say I'm not in love.

There are parts I would never change and some I wish never were affected.

But the truth is I am not that little girl anymore, I have to let go.

My mind is jumbled with no motive

And yet I feel like I miss you, or at least the memories I want to savour

Someone I thought loved me turned to be abusive

Never in my life had I felt livelier.

Nothing can change the past it is already written

But we need to stop letting it control our future.

Stop the thoughts from being on the run

Now that I see past the blur.

I’m sorry to say you manipulated me, made me think I was not worthy of your love.

Am I crazy, is this an obsession.

I never wanted you to hear it from me

I’ve been playing the part that you gave me, the bitch.

When in reality you were that hun

Always played the innocent act so well, you even fucked me up to make it believable.

Why did you do it, still to this day 6 years after it started that still seems to be the way.

Well I’m done playing your part, find a new yourself another person to abuse

Maybe that’s the real reason it seems no one loves you.

I don’t mean that really, I love you and I want the best for you.

There is no blame to give, responsibility needs to be taken

By both parties who played the part

But to give you the satisfaction of making me feel unworthy is not going to happen.

I will become someone you could never achieve because deep down we are complete opposite the role we play.

The way to do that is to cut you short there has been a tightrope between us keeping each of us miserable, I know you won’t do it so I’ll pull the scissors.

Someone once told me “Once toxic people learn that they cannot control who you are anymore they try to control what the people around you think of you”

Now looking at everything you were the toxic person that kept me from growing.

So to be true to my nature I will do as I said to you, I will help you but after that I’m done.

Goodbye to you and I wish you well as our futures are bound to drift apart.

I don’t mean to be so harsh it hurts me to write you this but honey I can’t play your game.

Now when I think of you there won’t be any anger, just relief because I know what you are.

My friend this is farewell.

Goodbye to everything that has to do with you

It hurts me too much to keep pretending that there was nothing

So you can keep your games, and manipulation to yourself because there is no way in hell I will let it control my life anymore.