Worthy

It's typical of someone to say

"I know what you're going through"

"I've been in your shoes"

"It'll get better"

But that's all a lie to make you feel better, right?

Because I don't feel better

My good days are few and far between

My smiles are a rare sight to find

My beautiful and once giving heart

Cannot take another burden to bear

And all that seems to reside

Are the endless memories I once treasured

Nostalgia with melancholy and endless tears of longing

I laugh in the face of fear

I have a sliver of it left

For I don't fear death any longer

Each day is filled with pain

I wish to forget.

They have your back at first

But as time passes

They pass too

Thinking surely you're ok and over it by now.

But I'm not.

I'm loyal to a fault

I love too hard

And now they've taken it all

My heart, my mind, my soul

They're withered as if my body is that of an elderly

They've shruck up to a mere nothing

And now I cease to find a reason

I asked for one reason

And they could give me none.

I let myself deteriorate

I let them continue to hurt me

Because if I was worthy enough

I'd have my love, my life

And build an empire for us

But that dream is long gone

From the eye to see.

They think they know what they say

"Have faith"

Love youself first"

"Only make yourself better"

But what they don't realize

If no one thought

I was worthy to be

Then why should I try

To make something of me?