Why Don't You Feel

You don't know how it feels to wake up in the middle of the night and have to rush to the bathroom because your body is on fire and you need a cold shower to calm it down

You don't know how it feels to be crawled in my safe place shaking as I rock my body against the wall to calm myself down.

You don't know how it feels to breathe heavily in an elevator with a dozen others

You don't know how it feels to be frozen in bed and have the boogeyman stare at you

Feel the bad rush of adrenaline and the goosebumps that rise up my skin

Count the tears from my face and the broken plates on the floor

You don't know how it feels to be me, but hey it's nice to meet you my name is INSANE, ha, that's funny right because that's everybody thinks of me

You really don't know how nervous I get walking down the street and see everyone stare

You don't see beneath my sleeves either

You don't feel my pain or my hurt

and you never came up to me and asked if I was feeling okay or if I needed a hug instead you walked away and I ran straight to my room and cried myself to sleep which is what I do every night since I've made it part of my daily routine

You don't know me

You don't know how I feel

so please just stop staring at me and try being in my shoes