Alcoholism is not what I knew
I only found out once I grew
in the background, so black and blue
we still suffered, thanks to you
As a child, she said she couldn’t do it
said she had a hard life and that I knew it
but she was the world to me and she blew it
stuck a knife in me and left me to fail through it
all I have is this empty pain
as an adult, I have nothing to gain
life is a gamble anyway
everyday is lighting a torch with a flame
lord I feel you watching by
as I sit by my window and cry
I know your going to judge me someday
I just don’t know what to say
as these demons infest my brain
why did you make me this way?
why did you make me anyway?
my children are so dear to my heart
I have loved them from the very start
one day they will know the feeling
all their lives will be full of love and meaning
even after I turn cold and stop breathing
meanwhile I will continue healing
all of these cards that I’ve been dealing
—h.b. Woods
About the Creator
H.b. Woods
I am a mental health warrior; I battle it daily. I’m a mom to 5, a wife, a daughter, and a friend. Some of my poems are brutal as my ‘journey’ continues. Thank you for taking the time to read my poems.
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