Why?

I can admit that I'm broken , my heart was stolen and returned Shattered into bits

I tried to pick them up and fix it but you came and knocked them out of my hand,

Sometimes it hurts more to hold on than it does to let go but with you I don't even know the pain I feel is unbearable

my thoughts are unshakable it's a constant reminder on how I should of thought smarter and Been a little wiser but I was young and thought I was in love.

I try to be strong but something about you just makes me weak and it's hard for me to fathom the thought of even think about living separate lives, doing superset things without me and someone else between my thighs.

It's hard for me to ever Imagine Another women having you like I had you but also living that dream that I planned on it's kinda strange to ponder on being strangers when I still had plans for that marriage I arranged for us.

It's not easy typing these words and realized that I'm beyond hurt without a thought to return, when can I shed tears and break down without being judged or called out?

Why can't I be weak why can't I have a weakness it's so much going on in me I can't even distinct the feelings i don't know which is which all I can do is ask why?

Why is this happening to me ? Why did I get put in this position to feel this way and I can't help but wonder where's the real affection

Treating life like it’s an erection 🤷🏾‍♀️ fuck it head strong and let it go but how can I do that and I'm constantly did wrong .

Why am I the only one who can solve my problems why am I the only one who cares about my well being yet I should care for others when I care they’re smothered

I’ll treat you like a friend and love you like a brother overprotective I am just like your mother but why does this mean we can’t be together?