Why

Why can't we go back to the happy days. Where we laugh, play, and talk about nonsense. Everything was just what we needed it to be. You held me in your arms while I fell asleep just for me to wake up and you wasn't there. I thought I was dreaming for a while then I pinched myself knowing I was facing reality. Millions of thoughts ran through my mind as if I was the one that ended it all. I was confused and abused by the pain in my heart. I couldn't understand why you wasn't there. I couldn't grasped the air and the words that you last said to me. I love you and I'll never leave you replayed in my head while I searched for my phone to call you.

Why, why did you leave? Was the question I kept asking myself over and over again while the phone rung. I could hear my heart beat inside my ears while I patiently wait for you to answer. I knew it was all coming to end when I reached your voicemail. I couldn't speak nor could I move. None of this was making sense to my heart, my mind, and my body. I was lost in my thoughts that I couldn't picture myself without you. Years and tears rolled away why I was too busy paying attention to the hours and not the happiness that was in front of me.

Stuck inside my feelings that I was destroying my confidence, letting my worth go, and sobbing in my tears for sadness. I never got the answer to my question but I had to move on. I was becoming weak and blinded by the pain I felt for you. You left without a reason but I couldn't let you keep me down. I reminded myself of my life before you before there was an us. I know what I have to do now to keep my happiness. I have to love myself more than I love anything else.