Who Am I?
A Poem About Insecurities and Self-doubt
Who am I?
It is a question I ask myself on a regular basis
It is a question that haunts me in my dreams
The insecurity of not knowing
The fear of losing myself
I don't know who I am
My scars are more visible than ever
And I am at my weakest
These moments are killing me
Who am I?
I don't know
I try to find myself every day again
But I fail over and over
I want to be that innocent girl again
That girl that used to laugh without a care in the world
That little girl who was too naive to understand
To understand what was actually happening
The hurt
The abuse
The cruelty
The selfishness of the people around her
I want to regain that innocence
But I am afraid it is too late
For me to ever be that little girl again
To ever be that carefree again
Sometimes I wake up at night
Sweating and breathing heavily
My demons haunt me in my sleep
And I will never truly get rid of them
I try to find solitude by drowning myself in music and thoughts
I try driving out the nightmares with whatever means I have
But they always seem to find a way back in
They never really let go of me
I don't know if I will ever be able to let go of the past
It scares me, this lack of security
I drown myself in fear
Day after day
I know these words may sound incoherent
And like they don't belong
I know this isn't a real poem
But I need to find a way to get rid of these thoughts
The question still remains
Who am I?
I've lost myself
In a sea of nightmares
Will I ever know
Who I truly am?
Will I ever be whole again?
Instead of this broken shell of who I once was...
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