There's a soft buzzing coming from somewhere
It could just be the fan
Or it could be something else
I bury my face into the pillow
I wiggle one foot hopefully
Sleep!
I tell myself firmly
Coaxingly
Pleadingly
Please, sleep?
I beg myself
Then I realise
The buzzing is in my head
And it's not so much a sound
But more of an impression
And it's not buzzing
It's whirring
My mind is whirring
Spinning like a top
Like a dervish
Out of control
Like a doomed plane
Headed for its earthly demise
My brain shouts
Mayday!
As anxiety crowds in
My body so tired
So heavy
So depleted
My mind a rush of movement
Like a child high on birthday cake
And fizzy drinks
Yammering on about a favourite toy
I've split and become two people
Excited child
And weary adult
I want to sleep
But I want to play
To create
To dance
The fan in the corner
Waves white noise to me
Enticingly
Coaxing me from insomnia
And into sleep at last
But the hyperactive child
Only torments me
With nightmares of buzzing bees
And crashing planes
And train wrecks
And crumbling clocks
Dissipating into the breeze
Reminding me of
How useless time really is
I wake exhausted
Perpetually
Sleep deprivation my constant companion
Caffeine my only friend
About the Creator
A. R. Ambrosi
I like to write, if that makes me a writer, then rock on!
I started writing as a child because I ran out of stuff to read. So, I only write stuff that I like. If you like it too, awesome! Enjoy! ^_^
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