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When You Have a Bad Day

Little Gifts

By Jasmine FlowerPublished 7 years ago 1 min read
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Sometimes I send myself little gifts

Food I made in advance that I find in the fridge when I'm tired and worn down

Inspiring quotes I posted on social media that remind me

That someone

Somewhere

Out there

Understands me and knows exactly what I'm going through.

These little gifts save me

At times

When it feels

Like I will always be alone

Trying to survive

In a current

That insists

On pushing against me

Every step of the way.

People want to steal my beauty.

They want to take it for themselves or make it disappear if it's too intimidating

I am tired of managing

All the people

Who only love me

When I serve them.

I am tired

Of managing

Everyone else's BS.

I

Am

Tired.

I so often find myself

Still

Needing to fix and solve and do for others

When they will never do for me.

I am so tired.

I remember

These moments of loneliness

Utter pits of despair.

I forgot about them

In my desperate attempt to distract and avoid.

I got so good at running away

I stopped needing to face my loneliness.

I am not lonely, because I am alone.

I am lonely

Because I feel attacked on all sides.

Because I feel doors shut in my face

For being

Me.

There are people who tally up

All my right and wrongdoings

And then there are people

Who just

Love me

Because they understand that I am human

And they love the flawed being that I am.

I miss those people.

For some reason

They are not here

And I am alone.

So be it.

I will survive.

I remind myself

That I am loved

I remove the thought that I am alone

I'm not alone.

I am just

Tired.

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