When I Was

when i was little i used to play with my friends

we'd laugh and count to ten

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

my friends would hide

i'd be afraid, why cant i find them? I would say

when i was 12, my friend was raped

we'd cry together i could not relate

she was so different now

i could not be her friend

when i was 17, my friend ran away

her boyfriend lover she'd always say.

her boyfriend gave her one baby but he'd forget to be a father and walked away

when i was 19, i fell in love funny to say

i could blame anyone for my mistake

when i was 20, i learned there are no friends

That title will stab you in the back and laugh at your face

we can pretend to understand

we will make more mistakes

my friends hid when i was afraid

it takes up to ten for friends to disappear

beautiful how an innocent game teaches morality

a lesson of being completely fake.