What They Don't Know

On again, off again

Can’t we make up our minds?

Do you want me as yours,

Do you want to be mine?

Not once, but twice

We played this game

Surely a third time can’t end the same?

Do you think He’ll tell us no?

Maybe all we have to do is grow

And within Him we have to trust

Just then, maybe He’ll bless us.

Lethal tongues, you and I share

But deep within each other,

We both know we still care

I told you to never doubt us

But I guess I lost faith too

Because I’m fairly certain

Our story got cut off too soon

People see you as a monster

Because that’s how I painted you

But if you really wanted,

In my true colors, you could paint me too

But the narrative is being rewritten

Reverse character assassination

So I too,

Can also fall for all of my sin

What they never saw

Was how you never gave up on me

And even when I was too blind to see

You only wanted the best for me

What they never felt

Was how you loved me hard

Even when your attempts were barred

You protected me from afar

What they never heard

Was how you told me I was prettiest at dawn and dusk

And how your feelings for me were far deeper than lust

How you’d protect me, no matter what

What they didn’t know

Is how you tried to give me the world

But I just couldn’t act right

Wanting more than I could hold

Maybe if I didn’t try so hard

To have my hands in everything

I could still be your anything

Maybe if I didn’t see you as a villain

We could’ve used all this time apart

To work on what we planned from the very start

Maybe if my actions matched better with my words

And I wasn’t so cut throat when I got upset

You wouldn’t have ran off with someone who was just after your bank check

We’ve both said things we can’t take back

We’ve both done things we can’t erase

We can’t press restart on this clock

But maybe we can walk a new path at a different pace

But for now my dear,

Just keep me near

While we may only now just be friends

I’ll show you proper love, until the very end.