Here I am..what is left of me
trying so hard to hold on and not flee
grasping and pulling into the air
searching and crying for things not there
Thoughts and visions of
light and dark
Worry and wonder
a life full of strife
Time moving shifting thru space
a world full of people and nothing but hate
The pain and misery I want not to share
But holding it in I feel a slight tear
Forming inside me trying to get free
Changing and threatening what I thought I knew
Me
Who am I now
What am I becoming
The horror racks me again
feel like running
Away
To where I know not
Twisting and churning heart beating so fast
What am I looking for
while dodging the past
A future so bright a flash of white light
Hearing the blood rushing in my head
can't help but wonder if the future is dead
Dread dread as my pulse moves my temples
How am I a good example
The one who is falling apart day by day
Letting those around me think
I am ok
I do not want to hurt like this
Or show the rage that does exist
To be this scared one should not be
to be this angry how unfair of me
Grief...lost....Frustration...despair...
Anger....resentment...Rage....violence
Anguish...torture..
Guilt....
all of this inside of me
welling up growing
I just want to be free....
About the Creator
jessica young
Never know what one is to say about themselves. I am here to let out some thoughts. I am getting older with each breath. I use to love "things"..I hope I can find that again.
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