I sit here wondering and thinking of all the what ifs
I sit here wondering and thinking am I really worth it
I sit here wondering and thinking do I continue fighting it
And If I do what will come from it, would you even care to hear me speak of it?
What if I told you how I really felt?
What if I told you all the feelings I felt?
Would you walk away and never turn around?
What if it didn't go as planned and I lost all in the midst of it?
What if this is all just a game of life we play?
What if??
What if the feeling of being unwanted never goes away?
What if the feeling of not being enough never goes away?
What if the feeling of losing everything doesn't go away?
What if??
What if everything is just temporary?
What if everything just disappeared and all I know is gone for good?
What if I can't push through when it is gone?
What if I can't do it alone?
What if I asked you to be there would you?
What if??
As I sit here wondering and think of all the what ifs
As I sit here wondering and think is it really worth it
As I sit here wondering and think do I continue fighting it
But most of all as I sit here wondering and thinking I think what if...
What if I just keep it all in?
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