I just want to be mad.
I want to scream,
Punch,
Bite,
I swear I'll fight
but I'm tired.
I just want to smile.
But I'm weak from the days behind me.
And I'm struggling to be happy in the days before me.
I want to be mad that I'm struggling again.
Why does life have to be like this?
I want to beat,
To battle,
To defeat.
But the thing that I'm fighting is air itself.
I want to be angry,
Pissed at the moon
For pulling at the ocean the way it seems too.
The ocean inside of me,
The tides confirm
That I am drowning
Inside myself again.
Will I ever learn to swim?
Or would it even matter?
I say getting madder.
I want to be consistently content with my life,
But it seems
That every so often I forget
That constant smiles are rare for me.
I'm mad because I'm trying.
God, I am always fighting.
So why can't that just be enough?
To make myself believe again
That I can calm the seas.
Because I'm tired and angry about always trying and not getting anywhere.
Tell me,
When will I be relieved?
Sg.
About the Creator
Serrena Gragg
Welcome to my poetry page. This is where I will leave pieces of me for those who care to read my thoughts.
More from me at
https://linktr.ee/Serrenathedead
xoxo,
S.g
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