Waiting for Spite

I can't get you out of my head

I'm tormented by memories that once brought me joy

Now they run deep with corruption and an unfiltered sorrow

The pain gives them a hint of grey

I've become colorblind to love

The sunshine you carried into a room is now darkness

It attracts my attention like a black hole

Pulling me in against my will, knowing it will be torment

I'm haunted by past urges and reopened scars

The scars on my arms representing each regret that runs through my head

The tip of this blade as sharp as the pain you strike in my heart

It makes me bleed raw contempt for the reflection in the mirror

While also making me feel alive

I'd relive all these bittersweet memories if it made me malicious enough to not care about you

I can't bear the thought of tears running down your cheek and collecting in your soul

The glimmer in your smile was the one light I could see on this dark trail

I'm sorry I didn't see it sooner