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what do you want me to say?

my anxiety gets me

like chew me and spits me back out

some say i’m distant

don’t know what i’m about

i just go with my instinct

not word of mouth

so as much as i love for you

care for you

adore you

such ways i can not describe

i’m deep as long as the ocean drives

but this feeling

takes over me

anxiety

now i can’t breathe

i’m trapped

i’m struggling

to escape from this reality

two sides to the story

one that you see

so you think you know me

or maybe it’s me

i’m so annoying

but when i speak my mind foreal

adore me

so maybe i can’t speak

but i can write

if u read one of my poems

perhaps you’d change your mind

& see the other side of me

where i’m free

free from my anxiety

as much as i try to hide it

it always comes and finds me

no sense in playing hide and seek

so don’t get me wrong

when i do not speak.