Unspoken Words...
Trapped Inside Your Own Mind, a Storm Building Inside
I loved you,
We lost ourselves,
You left,
I missed you,
You Died,
I still loved you,
Those unspoken words,
I forgive you,
I never stopped loving you,
The distance,
The silence,
The separation,
The emptiness,
Was my way of living,
To see you happy,
To see you forget me,
Was the hardest grief, To bear
The communication,
Your voice,
Your words,
That cut so deep,
When all i wanted was you,
For you to be by my side,
When i was Ill,
When i was Sad,
most of all
When i was HAPPY,
To be that happiness, once more
You worried about me,
You cared about me,
In my mind I placed you to the back,
Trying to be happy,
To learn the love i had for myself,
To heal the scars,
You etched on my skin,
To learn to breath,
Without your words breathing down on me,
To learn to feel
Without loving you
To understand,
Without your bitter words,
but most of all,
To find the women i lost, Whilst
Trying to fit in to a world not
fitted for me
Your silence,
Your death,
Your heart beating one more time,
Your eyes, that smile
Without saying Goodbye,
The worse kind of silence
Caused a storm inside me
The anger,
The frustration,
The heartache,
The sadness,
Attaching itself to the corners of my heart
Not being able to breath,
Not allowing myself to feel,
For the fear it will destroy me.
That the twister building from the core
will sweep through my soul,
engulfing all that is love,
and beauty there,
and leaving me destroyed on the ground,
a crumbled mess, A bitter taste
That silence, The distance
Moving on, wasn’t that the point
Death, destruction, grief
Destroyed that,
Never saying goodbye,
Never celebrating your life,
Never celebrating the person i new,
The existent, where we once
Laughed,
Loved,
argued,
Protected,
Absorbed each others
goofy natures,
four years cut from your life
As if what we had, Was disposable
Disposable to those
who didn’t understand,
but not to me.
Your happiness,
Your life,
Is all i wanted for you
To love, to be loved
To be the Man i new you where
With or without me
Two Days, Forty Eight Hours
And two thousand eight hundred and eighty seconds
The countdown
Your deathbed
Your last breaths
Your last moments
Waiting…
endless waiting,
for that phone call,
that text message,
confirmation…
My last words never said
Just sitting, Just waiting
Not knowing,
silencing my words
My feelings,
To please those around you.
Not expressing, Not using my words
To tell you ‘ That I love you’
and ‘i Forgive you’
Not to say goodbye, But till next time.
But now,
I need to say Goodbye,
I need to love you, to remember you
To love those moments we had,
To forgive the hurt we caused
Though not letting go,
but loving each other,
Your heart is part of mine
and mine is part of yours,
Till my last breath, I will love you
and I thank you
For loving all of me,
For that brief moment, In your life.
Now Breathe....
About the Creator
Sharron Wheeler-Davies
World Explorer, Writer, Photographer, Food Lover, Artist, Book Enthusiast, Girl Gamer, Redhead on a Mission, Soul Searcher, Life Experiencer, Storm Chaser, Pure Adventurer, Healthy but yet sometimes NOT so Healthy gym lover and dancer.
Comments
There are no comments for this story
Be the first to respond and start the conversation.