Unseen Bruises and Scars

I can't believe it's been 3 years ago since I left

And here I am still dealing with the unseen Bruises and Scars

Your hatred was pure and unfiltered

You made me feel so insecure

For the longest time just a touch on my skin would make my heart ache and my breathing quicken

Even someone raising their voice would freeze me in an instant

Now I try not to compare my current love to who you once were

I never feel good enough for anyone

Not even myself

What was it that made you so angry

You wouldn't even let me cut my hair

While you went out and partied with friends

I stayed home and tried to be the perfect wife

I cleaned house, paid bills, cooked

But none of that was ever good enough even when I helped you with your dream

You shot mine down

You thought I was stupid

I was never good enough for you that's why you did it

These unseen scars and bruises

Your words cut like a knife

Not as much as your hands at my throat

Or the dent in my head I'll forever feel

I had bruises back then that everyone could see

But those went along and healed

But the images and feelings left bruises and scars in my brain and on my heart

I gave you a second chance when I should've just ran

Things were great until you stopped your meds

Then the anger and hate came flooding in

You threatened me and my dogs

I couldn't take it anymore

It took a close friend to make me realize that I was worth more

So when you came through that door

I stood tall and strong

And gave you back that ring

That you gave me because you had nothing else to get me for Christmas

The last of the bruises and scars that were unseen