Unknown Madness

I lay my head down to sleep

But can't rest these torpid eyes

For my mind rather replay cognitive perplexities.

I lay still wondering what have I become?

I lay still wondering why me?

I lay still wondering am I the one?

I lay still thinking of what may be

I lay still thinking why'd he even chose me?

I lay still thinking where did everything go wrong?

I lay still hoping he'd just come home

I lay still hoping I'm not the crazy one

I lay still hoping I'm the only one.

As I move to gasp for breath

I then realized he never left.

For my unknown erotic of sadness has triggered yet another episode of madness

I try not to cry, I try not to pout,

but depression has set in and there's just no way out.