(Un)supported

You told me when I was young that you’d be there through it all

You showed this when I would come home crying because I couldn’t take it anymore

And when I dropped out of school and barely graduated at all

You were there through every treatment center and mental hospital

You showed nothing but love and support

Support

That’s laughable now

Now that I’m living on my own

And succeeding in my college career

Now that I have a job that makes me happy

And I’m engaged

You think I'm happy

But I’m not

You refuse to see the pain in my eyes with every “the girls are here”

And the self hatred with every “Molly”

You choose not to see the disgust written all over with every “she/her”

And the light drain with every conversation and excuse

Now, I hate coming over

I get overwhelmed with despair when you’re around

And all I can wonder is if tonight’s the night I make the pain stop

Visits are now a war

And I’m waiting until I don’t come home

And a flag comes in my place

It’s not what I expected when I told you I was your son instead of your daughter

But I guess even your support has a limit