Trust

Going into "this"

We had an understanding

Nothing "serious"

But something happened

Despite all the trouble we went through

I started letting my guard down

And like a rushing river

The feelings came in with full force of raging rapids

I promised myself I wouldn't do this

I said I would run

But like you said

It turned out to be more like, "Here I come!"

All I could think about was you

Mmm your wonderful kiss

Those feelings I've never felt

Scared of what this might do

Our first issue started out about making time

As well as something where the bad was all mine

And I found myself

Going out of my way to make it,

No matter the consequence

I was ready to fall in

But I soon found out

It was only one sided

You kept your guard up

And everything collided

It's like we slammed that door shut

The trust wasn't there

And without that

We can go nowhere

But maybe it's better this way

Even though all I wanna do is stay

I'm looking for affection

Is it too much to ask for attention?

Why won't you let me in?

I've seen your good and bad

But I didn't run and hide

I came in with guns blazin

You said you didn't want to move too fast

But I still remember those beautiful words

Has that moment passed?

Are we that far away?

What about wanting something so bad it hurts?

You used to call me "Babe"

It sent shivers down my spine

And warmed my blood every time

You said you would pick me up when I fell

And you would fall with me

And we would pick each other up

I remember that very well

"My dreams are good cause of you"

And you "Want me more than

I know, believe, and understand"

It took everything I had not to fall through

That was your good...and now for your bad

Like your serious trust issue

And the way you get when you're mad

How your words can be so beautiful yet

Just as much mean...The things you said

There goes my self esteem

"You can't take back what you say"

No matter how little, the scars never go away

The times you called me a liar

But I never lied

And if I ever find out your spotter

They better run and hide

Cause just as much as you

I hate to be lied on

My bitch will come out full throttle

You will pity that one

Cause when I get done

The results will be dreadful

I told you that I really care

But you didn't even have a comment to spare

You believe the voices in your ear

But there are two sides to a story

And as much as I tried

You didn't want to listen to me

Are all my efforts worth the heartache and pain

That I feel now...I think we are both to blame

For how this turned out...