The pain from my womb
Reminds me that there are things
Bigger than my love for you.
Though now I understand it was one-sided
This will be another lesson learned
And one that is needed too.
I caress my belly in circles until the skin moves
Wondering if I will ever create a being
And what kind of person they will be
And who.
As all of this is happening a smile slides onto my face
Pain is sometimes a gateway to a greater place.
(Brief: though Trips in my Mind in the AM was intended to be late night poems written when I can't sleep, this one was written first thing as I woke up instead. Due to the undrafted and raw words, I decided to include it in the same series).
This was also written 10 months before posting, because the word count was too small for Vocal to post it but hey. It's also wild how life turns out and how much healing can positively influence your life. Regardless, I like this poem so I'm still gonna upload it even though times have changed for the better.
Shout out to the person who inspired this poem. You're a g.
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I've slowly been falling back into poetry these days and for the first time in around eight months true inspiration has struck. Here is chapter five of Trips in my Mind in the AM. Gotta love 3 AM thoughts.
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A night filled with realisation
Escorted by
A duvet damp from my tears
And the fetus position
I have adopted over the years
When lonely.
Here we go again.
Music, artificially loud,
Bangs through my eardrums
In an effort to surge through my
b
o
d
y
And replace the aching existence
In my blood
With something more proud.
The lyrics open up a projected screen
Of events that have not been
Just to keep me feeling sane
And
D
R
REAM
I
N
G
On.
In the darkness of my room
I witness whisps of
Life with few
That has not bloomed
And must match my aching gasps
With silence
To accompany crying guitars
And my heart's broken tune.
But when I open my eyes
Against the silver of the room
And exists
Only myself and the moon
Numbness slithers into my understanding
And holds my hand
Until I get to
Tones and tunes of daylight.
About the Creator
LIFE MAZI
A RELIC OF GROWTH
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