It would be so easy to jump...
Not even the effort of a jump;
I could simply glide into forever.
Our forever was short lived, wasn't it.
But it sure was everything.
By everything, I mean all consuming;
Where do you end and I begin?
Where does reality end
and mine begin,
and yours begin?
Can I find myself again in the abyss?;
The chaotic underground of passion;
The breathtaking
eighteen thousand story view
of
the clouds.
Breathtaking, here, means
you took my breath away.
It was exhilarating and then it was horrifying.
And it was never your fault, or mine, but
always ours.
They say a near-death experience brings
a new appreciation for the life we're in.
It brings a monotony, I think.
What suffocates me makes me feel alive,
and then it's gone.
What challenges me makes me feel
like dying.
Most days, Being is a challenge.
The effort of standing up threatens to
knock me over;
The effort of smiling at someone
makes me feel mocked.
I know better, they know better too.
We all know it's a mask.
When I smile at you, even when it's genuine,
the mask
comes
off
How dare you blow my cover.
Standing; smiling; breathing! is laborious
and my brain is notorious for making shit up
Only when you're involved, though.
Funny how it works that way.
I'm crazy for you, isn't that
supposed to be
amazing?
I don't even know
where I'm going with this.
I'm off the path of the original thought,
and it happens when I try to harness them.
My thoughts, that is.
They're too wild for me these days.
Can't be bound by pen and page.
It would be so easy to glide down into forever.
But
I've got too much to do.
Shit to clean up
before I go.
Relationships to mend
before I leave.
Bridges to burn, too; no need
to burden them
with people.
So many loose ends to tie up,
will I ever be ready?
Naw, I'll be here a while
Past my time
I'm sorry. You're welcome.
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About the Creator
Tracey Lapham White
Born in Barrie, Ontario. Son Jamie, full of insight, creativity, and beauty. Tracey enjoys reading, Netflix, cleaning the house, making it messy again, good food, laughter, and education.
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