To the Man Next to Me

The feeling of you not loving me for me, for as if it was an obligation for the baby I carry in my belly that belongs to “we”

The coldness in your veins that run through your body as you’re touching me.

I feel nothing but pain when you rush out, leaving me on this couch without a goodbye kiss.

Wrong time, wrong place but never in our God’s head. For as it’s now the right time for us to “meet.” To create and believe that happiness is between us indeed.

But what is I to think when you treat me like this, are you ashamed of the woman that is in your presence because she’s not the one of your dreams.

I say this with no exaggeration and no regrets, I really thought you were the one for me!

Every night I push through the fear that you and I weren’t really meant to be, Because May 11 of 2017 was all I could’ve ever wished.

No pain, no sorrow only sweet caramel running down my bo

dy for you to kiss.

No tears just joy out of those “one night Stands” that we kept telling each other it would be.

But You and I aren’t made for this!

The fruit of temptation is what you’ve always looked like to me because you’re not really mine to keep.

Temporary is what this is, you over there and I over here but never ever near.

Flame and water who never meet because they weren’t meant for each other’s company.

I have loved you for so long that in this entire lifetime you will never be ever to count how much you mean to me.

I’ve sacrificed my heart to throw into flames because this is how seriously stupid I want us to be a “thang.”