To the Lost Friend

i want to know

i want to know if random things remind you of me.

i want to know

if your smile falls when a memory comes back to you.

i want to know

if your chest gets tight when you catch a glimpse of me in the halls.

i want to know

if your eyes burn when you realize i won't be a part of your future.

i want to know

if you keep track of the last time we talked.

i want to know

if you're losing your mind over losing me.

i want to know

if you think about the pain you shoved down my throat.

i want to know

if you wish my soul was still with yours.

i want to know

if your fingers itch to scratch the guilt off of your skin.

i want to know

if you're sorry for what you did.

i want to know

if you miss my laughter,

my voice,

or my tears.

i want to know

if you hurt the way I do.

-to the lost friend