To My Second Love:

I was sad. How could you do this to me? How could you just leave like I was nothing. Like it was nothing. Was I nothing? I was sad.

I was very sad. I was really sad. Because you hurt me. You really made me hurt. You made me cry, you made me weak, you made me shake back to the ground every time I tried to get up on my feet. And I was sad.

You were the drug I couldn't get enough of and I dreamt about you all the time. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't breathe I just wanted you as mine.

We were supposed to have the white picket fence and live our day to day American dream. But when I tried to lift you up all you did was act harsh and mean.

The weather was less than freezing but you were always cold. I tried to be what you needed me to be but day after day it got old.

I remember looking you in the face that day, the day you let me go. I couldn't understand why you'd choose them over me, why you'd throw away a ride or die for a night with a hoe. You broke my heart you made me weak. I see you in public and we barely speak. Cause how can you expect me to talk after that? When it's all said and done are you happy when you look back? What do you think when you see me or when they say my name? Do you miss me a little do you think of me at all does she scratch your arm the same way?

You never tell anyone anything so I guess I'll never know. I'm sure this is just another classic story of a man who let the good girl go. It may not have been for me but you did make a huge change. I honestly think it's because of me, I'll gladly take the blame. You never know what you got till its gone, you never know the pain could go away until the day that you move on.

I was sad. I'm still sad. I will be for a while. It's become a rare occasion to ever see me with a smile. But I will get past this and I know I'll be okay. And if you ever get to coming around, I've thought about exactly what I'll say. I'll tell you that it hurt. You'll tell me you were wrong. Look at me right now, I'm still hoping you'll show up before I even finish this song. But another day has come and gone and you're no where to be found. I have to stop putting myself thru this cuz you expect me to always be around.

I'll no longer sit and wait for you light up a sorry message on my phone. It's far to late I'm exhausted now, I just need to get home. They always say that if you love something you need to let it go, but before I finish the end of that line I thought that you should know. You're the one that held the door open, now watch me as I go. ‘Cause if you really love someone-you never let them go.