To Feel

Life always has something for us to learn.

We spend so much time trying to figure out the lesson.

I have been through a ton and still I feel like nothing.

I feel like I haven’t done much.

I work day in and day out.

I keep pushing myself through what life throws at me.

Some wonder what makes me tick.

Others want to understand why am I crazy.

It’s not that I am crazy.

I have to work harder for me to receive what I want most.

Everything seems to come at a cost.

I am helpful and dependable for all those around me.

The only person I haven’t been there for is myself.

I feel as if I can’t win against myself.

I may be my own competition but I just can't see past all the negative.

I know one day I will.

Life just keeps getting in the way.