Maybe I was scared of how you started to look at me,
How you looked to expect more of me,
Like I wasn’t who you imagined I’d be,
When I was really all over the place.
It’s not who I was, who I couldn’t explain.
It’s not that I wasn’t interested,
But I really didn’t know it all—
How I felt, how to feel, or have it manifested.
I didn’t know what to think,
Or what exactly to say,
I knew that it would all come,
Crashing down one day.
But one thing I knew I had to do,
Was walk away.
Then the time elapsed,
into another day.
Maybe I was looking for someone to pass time,
I ignored all that I was and all of mine.
I almost gave it all away,
But questions instead filled my brain.
I trusted too early, didn’t know better,
It felt like trying to force the weather.
It wasn’t right, but I tried to see,
If all of it was wrong, maybe just me.
But one thing I found in all those times,
Was how to get back what was mine.
My soul, body, and peace of mind,
What I tried to look for but couldn’t find.
And it’s not in some boy I settled for less,
It’s not in this heart that was so careless.
It’s not in some empty caress,
But it’s in me myself, nonetheless.
About the Creator
Alex A.
I write poetry and blogs about my curiosities in life. Why do we stress? We do we settle for less? Whether it's heartbreak, inspirational writings, I'll just write away~
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