Till Death Do Us Part

A withered wasteland...

In a bitter gloom I can't escape

Drowned by despair

Conditions that I can't reshape

In winter's arm's, I'm a wilting rose

Struggling to survive

I may be breathing, but I'm breathless

So comatose yet alive

If only I could change,

The cruel carnage of war

Fighting through each day,

Because of what he's fighting for...

Wishing for some relief or remedy,

Lost in his lingering memory

He always stood by me, abreast

In missing him, I'm missing part of me

Now my lone shadow is all I see

This torment emerging,

...too potent to suppress

My heart is with him,

...and his beats through my chest

I'm a wreck yearning to be reckless

Starving for rest as I lay restless

An insomniac when alone in this bed

Dreaming awake for slumber is senseless

How could life be so relentless?

Bitten by this burden raw and red

How could war lust for blood shed?

My hands bound by a vile spell

Living in war is a living hell

I beseech we hadn't bid our last goodbye,

But only the hands of time will tell

Temporary or final farewell

Combat ignites a broken battle cry

...Ashes of a sullen lullaby

Although I weep I will remain alas

In spite of the wait and distance so vast

Nights turn to days and each day turns graver

Fighting against the current won't bring back the past

'Twas a long time coming hitherto so fast

Writhing in worry wishing to be braver,

I acquiesce to the mercy of fate's favor

In war you're tangled in a wicked game

The price for honor is a crying shame

...To curtail the growth of a sprouting bud

Captured in the depth of a charcoal haze

No way to win despite how well played

Amid soldiers and their sweethearts is a somber flood,

A tear drop for every drop of blood...

Suffocated by my solitude

When in love to the greatest magnitude

How long am I to hold my breath?

Knowing shortly I will come unglued

A course of action I must execute,

Fraught to depart from my loneliness

Neither fair is life nor death

All turns rusted as I build

Ricochet my heart be stilled

Deteriorating, away I wear

Now so drained when once so filled

But I'd rather tip myself than be spilled

Cumbersome troubles cast on me to bear

Laden fragile with no strength to spare

My heart eradicated now I'm numb

Once consuming, now consumed by rum

One loss elicits the most brutal pain

As faith will evanesce to glum

Awaiting a return that may never come...

Emanate; let go, fire away

Two losses thus tantamount gain

Today a letter I received

Shot me down as I fell to my knees

Internal recoil within me it seemed

In excruciating pain, I grieved

Lamenting in sobs like a rushing stream

No eyes can cry and no mouth can scream,

...Like those of a broken-hearted widow's severed fantasy

Losing my love was my biggest fear

Now safety has no purpose here

A forceful strength I now will load

Aiming to make this pain disappear

Staying at close range right near

As if riding shotgun as he drove

No longer in his arms, left with my own...

Although my darling may be gone,

Our time separated shan't be long

So I hold my head and cock it high

In essence, I am moving on

Tenderly humming our final love song

By emotion, reason will be defined

In truth, one bullet takes both lovers' lives

I felt alive and elated

His love was all I ever knew

Now I'm the ghost of a fallen bird,

...that died crippled but once flew

Young love drives you mad, what's a girl to do?

Now once again I will feel alive

It's time to release when I pull through

So I whisper, Love, I'll see you soon

Here I hold my promise to my head aligned

I vow...my dear...

I will follow right behind