Tick Tock

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

Faith in God has waxed and waned

In the end, He does remain.

Prayer in good times and bad,

still don’t get the plan He has.

There I stood on a sharp edge

of a cliff to death mountain,

and saw a valley of beds.

One wrong move and I’d be them.

I never thought this would be

me, holding on to the tree

of life, of love and fam’ly.

I’ve been blind and did not see;

Each moment in time are gifts

that are given and taken

by spirits designed to lift

my soul above other men.

I said the words and the prayers

but still don’t get the layers

of truth in between the lines

that caused me to be this blind.

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

My church taught me they were right

only they knew how to fight

against all the death and sin

that I’m powerless to win.

Every church to which I’ve been,

expects donations to them

because they are true and pure

and the way to sin and cure.

Logic says there’s only one.

Who was there when life began.

Chemistry, God or the sun (Son)

One beginning and one end.

Here I sit and reminisce

about things I’ve seen and missed.

I’ve been blessed, there is no doubt!

I’ve also been cursed and pout

And feel justified because

I am human and I sin.

All my emotions want love

and strength to AGAIN, begin.

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

I’ve heard we don’t get more crap

than we can handle alone.

Who gave me years spent in nap?!

Who gave such pain in my bones?!

Sometimes I’m being carried

Why would anyone drop me?

My ears hear flawed and erie…

Just stop the pain and quickly!

I broke all the way down now

but have once more, come to stand

one last time, give me power

to follow some crazy plan.

I memorized all the books,

and still there’s no answer

why my pain feels like fish hooks

jigging throughout my figure.

Now, every day is truly

a new day for me to try

and be the best that I can be.

time will tell, that is no lie.

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

When looking back on my life,

Love is what always comes first.

As a Mother and a wife

My actions were loving life.

I’ve been fortunate in love

with conviction I know it

was sent to me from above.

real love dwells in our spirit

it grows with time even when

apart it grows somewhere in

our hearts, and it never ends!

Love like that must defeat sin!

For that love is powerful

The sweet love of a soulmate

The one who makes me feel full

In all this time, all my dates

I’ve never found another

soulmate, my dear love, because

once fate brought us together

I’d love you with all your flaws.

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

My soulmate and I were young,

skipping school and having fun.

ignorant of soul power

and what it does to lovers.

We met three decades today,

That hug wrapped around my core.

My soul and my body swayed.

and my soul felt whole once more.

Something pulled me here today

I needed to see your face,

Needed to know you’re ok

I felt at home at your place.

Now when I wake, ev’ry day,

my soul feels like kids at play.

I came when I felt you were

tugging my soul and aura.

To my end, I will be here.

Reach out and I will be there.

Back then we were family

And now my soul is happy.

Tick tock, tick tock, my life clock

turned thirty years in one day

through ups and downs, my life mocked

the dreams I had for today.

Life is not what I had planned.

and I believe love is key

Real love I can understand

That love in my soul makes me!