She’s finally learned how to control her mental health or at least that’s what she tells herself when she feels happy that she got the help but something is missing that puts her confidence on the shelf
Because of all the set backs, panic attacks, thank you for that’s, she hasn’t proceeded fast because she was too busy fighting her past
It’s like the clock stopped and the dust started to gather as her friends and foes went on to do things that matter
Degrees and homes and families that stay together, she’s never felt more alone watching her own endeavor end in her
She gained a little weight, acne on her face, online she seems to be doing great, but even when every thing is okay it’s still not what it could of been and it gets harder to put up such fake-ness
But, she made this
Her mind traded bliss for settling for a miss
She’ll never get a hit because the darkness is too strong
The anxiety lasts too long
She screams “everything inside of me is wrong”
As she looks in the mirror she does what’s been far too prolonged
Starts with the skin, tears it off her face
No identification as she burns her fingertips to their fate
Cuts to her heart within, blood gushing in her way
Let’s stop the heart from pumping, it always felt like it was too late anyways
Guts spill out behind
Liver and lungs don’t look fine
But she is fine,
she is
Empty inside with no accomplishments
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
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