This Is Why (Pt. 1)

.... This is why I give up....

These are the reasons I can’t function some days....

This is why I lay in bed for days on end, not bathing myself, not eating, not talking, not moving..

My brain doesn’t work like other people’s...

My brain hurts with a pain I could never describe..

My heart aches and feels torn..

I feel numb right now, almost completely emotionless.

Yet somehow on the edge of exploding into a million feelings.

I don’t remember how I got here and no one believes me.

Constantly guessing what move to make next to seem like I’m still alive.

When I’ve been gone since I closed my eyes.

-Valium.