Things People Have Said About Me

People have always called me funny.

Whether it was because my laugh could instantly make anyone chuckle

or because I always have a sassy or sarcastic comeback to any comment.

I am always the girl still laughing at the joke twenty minutes later.

Always laughing in all the off guard and candid photos.

The girl people assumed was happy.

I was never the girl to tell people I was sad.

People have always called me talented.

Whether it was because they saw me singing on a stage

or because they saw something I directed.

I am always the girl practicing at home.

Always helping cast members get their parts together.

The girl people assumed could make it on talent alone.

I was never the girl who got the callback.

People have always called me fat.

Whether it was because I had a few extra pounds on me

or because I claim my favorite food as cheesecake.

I am always the girl not shopping because this store doesn't have a plus section.

Always the girl skipping meals.

The girl who kept her eating disorder a secret.

I was never the girl that was content in her own skin.

People have always called me innocent.

Whether it was in reference to my blatant lack of sexual history

or the fact that I prefer vanilla ice cream.

I was always the girl that won in Never Have I Ever

Always the one with no new relationship gossip other than the "what could have beens"

The girl bringing up the heavy topic of "no sex before marriage" on the first date.

I was never the girl called for a second date.

People have always told me I worry too much.

Whether it was in reference to me always seeing the negative outcomes of a situation

or because I was always concerned about my friends and family.

I was always the girl having panic attacks in my car.

Always the girl having panic attacks in her room.

The girl who everyone assumed was handling her anxiety disorder.

I was never the girl who felt okay.

I am telling myself that I am perfect, just the way I am.

Whether it's my inability to hold a grudge with people who have wronged me

or because I can make you the best cheesecake you've ever tasted.

I am the girl who's going to learn to love herself.

Always the girl who looks her challenges in the face and winks.

The girl making her own path, carving it out one day at a time.

I will never be the girl who hears the world's opinions of me and takes them as fact.