When I saw your little hand on my big hand today
I remembered that moment, that very special day
when we cherished our time together, just you and I
hours of time we spent and loved until we had to say goodbye.
So much has happened between then and now
your little brother and your new mother
years of holiday and celebrations followed
Joe, missing you hurts like none other!
Sometimes the pain is so great
a pain in my throat, and endless tears, my stomach in a knot
Tears fall down my cheeks, past my mouth and land on my broken heart
I hope you know I miss you every day!
The note you wrote me to help when I miss you
clings to my fridge door and makes me feel blue
With all my might I pray for you that you feel no harm.
When I see you again will you still run to my open arms…
that now hang down empty, useless and lost
without you, my boy, I’m carelessly tossed
to where my tears take over in the dark
and leave scars on my heart, their mark
minutes, hours and days have passed
that will never come back or last.
all those memories that will never be
can’t fill my heart and only hurt me.
While this is sad, the worst is not yet said.
I can barely form the words, it hurts so much
to think you feel any pain that I can’t hug
without you in my life, I wish I were dead
when I saw your little hand on my big hand today
I remembered that moment, that very special day
when we cherished our time together, just you and I
hours of time we spent and loved until we had to say goodbye.
Sweet sweet Zeke, my little boy who’s only four
my last baby there’s no way to explain poor
I’m sorry I let you down, I’m sorry I’m not there
I hate myself for being such a failure
Did I do enough, how far will it carry you?
Are you safe are you sad I don’t have a clue
He hurt me and I tried to protect you
there is no preschool domestic abuse.
Life is not fair it is really hard Zeke
I’m doing my best if I could just hear
your sweet little voice maybe I would cheer
up enough to dry off some of my tears
how do I explain that I can’t see dad
he makes me sick and stole the life I had
the very thought of him makes me red angry mad
I hope you don’t learn his ways, my lad.
Remember the time we had together
days in the garden were so much better
but even then I knew I didn’t have a chance
I knew I would break if I danced this dance
Am I still in your heart, have you forgot?
Do you feel my love please forget me not!
Remember not to hurt the ones you love
When you feel weak, send a prayer above.
The judge’s orders cannot be explained
Nor do you understand a Mother’s pain
No matter what you hear please remember
your loving Mom every November.
Sweet sweet Zeke, my little boy who’s only four
my last baby there’s no way to explain poor
I’m sorry I let you down, I’m sorry I’m not there
I hate myself for being such a failure
About the Creator
Chez D
I hope somebody gets something valuable out of any one thing I might write.
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