There's a Mess Inside My Head
What do I represent?
There’s a mess inside my head
And I’m not sure what it represents
Is it a life of tests;
Of things I have to guess?
Of not knowing where i’m going
Of feeling stuck yet roaming around
In circles and lines
Being caught in the vines
Of my life
And being unable to free myself
And realizing that crazy truth
And longing for my youth
When nothing mattered
But going to school and doing my homework
Longing for that simplicity
And the ability
To curl up on the couch
And tell my mother what is wrong
Is it wrong
To want to be a child again
To escape the hurt and pain
The tightening fear in my chest
That doesn’t let me rest
But keeps me awake and paralyzed
As the demons in my mind
Become shadows in my house
And I cry out silently
Wanting someone to hear me
But still afraid of the vulnerability
Of being exposed
Of admitting aloud that I’m afraid
And making it true
So I’ll let it melt away
Inside disposable tissues
About the Creator
Deanna Garrido
Sagittarius | Sister | Daughter | Friend | Thinker | Dreamer
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